The Three Of Us

The three of us

in our first official picture together

Sometimes it feels like this picture was just taken yesterday,

and sometimes it feels like this picture was taken a million years ago.

To be exact, it was 20 months and 3 weeks ago

{thank you BabyCenter for my weekly toddler updates...I don't even have a chance to forget my baby boy is growing up}

Let's cut to the chase.

I have baby fever.

I think I'm to the point where I can finally say, er...type, that out loud.

{which is a slight revolution, so be proud, even though it still sounds weird}

I'm pretty sure people have been asking me when we'd try for our next baby since Isaiah was about 2 minutes old.

Ok, maybe not, but you get the point.

As soon as we got married everyone asked when we wanted to have our first baby,

and as soon as we {well, technically I} popped the first baby out, people want to know about the second.

{hopefully people don't keep asking after the next one...I mean, I'm no Michelle Duggar}

I've always had this anxiety about having our second baby.

I could never imagine having that same overwhelming feeling of love like I had the moment I met Isaiah.

I couldn't picture how I would divide my time equally

or let each child know how much I love and adore them.

And I didn't think that was fair.

But all that is starting to change...

I can picture myself sharing my love

and my time

and my happiness

and my joy

with another amazing child.

Don't get me wrong, there's still plenty of anxiety to go around.

Where is everyone going to fit?

{our house is under 900 sq feet, but hey, people in New York City do it}

Would Isaiah adjust well to being a big brother?

Am I sane enough to raise two children?

Will hubby and I have any time together?

Can we even afford two children?

But I think the hardest thing to wrap my mind around,

is that it will never be

the three of us.

I love us.

And I think I'm scared that we won't be us anymore.

This is my absolute favorite Ben Harper song.

It's crazy how without any words it can sum up the way I feel.

It makes me feel calm...peaceful.

And for that, I am thankful